I rejoice right now because I cry out to the Lord and he hears me. I, for the first time in weeks, feel somewhat normal. God has graced me with energy to do all I need to do and be all I need to be to my babes. He is my strength when I am week, and He is so quick to be that for me! Thank you lord for hearing me and helping me when I owe my all to YOU!
I am thankful for all these REAL posts. Its just another opportunity to think of the Lord and what He wants to do in me. I mentioned I am a complainer, and boy am I! I was thinking about it more since the other day and God has revealed more of my heart to me. I am the queen of ease and "my own way"..I say I love my life and my boundaries but when things aren't just so, I really dont love them. I really dont believe my boundaries have fallen for me in PLEASANT places...not by my reaction anyway. I see more now of my automatic reaction to think "GEEZ!". I am thankful for this conviction. I am excited for God to show me more of how to die to myself. My hope is in Him to change my deserving heart, and to think of myself less. He endured the cross for me and didnt complain. I hope I can be more like Him, and with His help, Im sure I can. Thanks be to Him for our hope!
I am a bit embarrassed to say all this (pride!), but it's fine. Im probably worse than I even portrayed. I am a real sinner. My heart is true in its ungratefulness. Thank God for my Savior!
Here's something REAL for you (click above picture to enlarge ::at own risk::)
Yesterday, I was about to enjoy my much coveted 2nd nap of the day. Reid came out of his room and his feet were squishing on the floor. This is what I found.
My reaction? I cried. Not of a happy heart(simple but true), but of frustration, distrust, anger, and hopelessness. I didnt believe God would sustain my energy or stomach to tackle this, I was afraid. I wasn't patient with the situation, but angry I had to deal with this. I finally realized my sinful heart and took this picture to show what my REAL was yesterday. And, He did sustain me. (no surprise)
10 comments:
Oh yumm. JK. Been there. Is it poop or barf I couldn't tell. Love that you took a pic of it. HEE HEE.
I think it's a Hershey bar.
Poop. Bleech.
Hey Ginger, thanks for offering up your camping gear. I'd gladly and gratefully accept. I'll call you next week to rearrange! :-)
I wasn't sure if it was poop or barf either. Whatever it is....gross. A couple months back I had one of those moments. I was disciplining Savanna in the bathroom and I walked out and there was Jordan....naked and eating his POOP. I was so grossed out. How do you beach a little boys mouth?? You don't, but you brush really hard. As I look back now, it is a fun story to share and the girls love to hear it again and again.
Oh ginger! i am so sory for you! I would have thrown up. This is why the lord hasn't made me a mommy yet! I couldn't handle it.
Its poop...stinky carrot filled poop. my sweet husband is going to bleach it for me outside--if it doesnt work, its trash. Billie-you make me laugh. How can anyone eat their own poop??? BOYS!!
ginger, thanks for this Real post. I'm so blessed by how honest you are and also how you continue to remind yourself and others of the hope and power of the Gospel. 'Jesus died on the cross and did not complain'- what a beautiful Savior.
ps i remember babysitting for a family with boys and on their changing-table there was a huge roll of duck-tape . . . makes sense now!
YUCK!!! I am so sorry Ginger! I hate dealing with poop... it totally makes me sick!!
Sara
Ahhhh! I didn't quite have that picture in mind when I asked everyone to get 'REAL'!!! Wow, that's gross, I just had to spit... (it's a wierd thing i have to do). I'll be praying for your piece of mind as you're dealing w/ this pregnency. The Lord will give you the grace as you need it.
Lately I've been feeling so overwhelmed with more than I can usually do, esp. physically, and with each step I take the Lord fills me w/ an extra measure of grace. I pray the same for you as you start a new week.
oh man... i would have cried too...praying for you for strength and resting in God' grace for you.
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